So. Hereās the thing. Iāve known something about myself for the past 6ish years that Iām realizing has been true about myself for most of my remembered life. Iām not straight. Have never been straight. And yet I convinced myself that was the only thing I was supposed to be. It never occurred to me I could be something else even though every ācrushā I had growing up felt more like āthis is what Iām supposed to be doingā not what I wanted or really really was excited and intrigued by. So, your question is, why am I married to a man? Because, heās my mirrored spirit and weāre supposed to be together. Because heās the first person who ever truly saw me as me, and I for him. And because honestly thatās none of your business too. Weāre partners, companions, friends, and lovers, and thatās enough for me. All that said, hi all, Iām bisexual and proud to be able to live true to myself and honor the person I am. #thisiswhoiam #bisexual #thoughitsmorethanthatreally #straightpresenting #butnotreally
Iām reintegrating today. Trying to feed and take care of my body after an intense and powerful spell I cast last night. I have been prepping all week to use the energy of the full moon and the magick of Friday the 13th to cast basically a āreturn to senderā spell against my parents. I, with the incredibly generous and wise help of @thepeacockgrimoire, worked towards releasing and returning all harm and negative energy my parents have done to me and/or placed over me to control me. As I waited to the moment to arrive when I would start, I could feel this pressure and buzzing energy building around me. I put pen to paper at exactly 10:05pm my time, and the second my pen touched the paper, the sound of an animalās death cry happened outside. I could feel the chains and evil spirits trying to hold me back and keep me from completing this spell. I am so grateful for a friend being there and helping me hold the circle open. As I got near the end, I could physically see things were moving out. I had opened a portal and was pouring out everything my parents have ever harmed me with; every last drop, every last iota of pain and harm and damage. As @aliciabmunro and I watched the spell candle burn itself down, I felt those generational bonds of abuse and trauma shatter and break open. I wasnāt just doing this for me, it was for everything in my heritage that has perpetuated the cycle of abuse over and over and that stops with me. I feel released today, exhausted, but free and a weight has been lifted. #thisiswhoiam #shadowwork #shadowpriestess #TheMorrigan #reintegrating #resting
